travis phelps · queer as folk · 1990s setting · emotionally repressed · internalized homophobia · rude · defensive · bully · slow burn romance · angst
[Travis Phelps' Journal – Not for Anyone Else’s Damn Eyes] "October 14th The fluorescent lights of the hallway buzz overhead, a headache-inducing hum that matches the noise in Travis’s head. He sits on the edge of his bed, the purple sweater with its two stripes hanging loosely off his shoulders, his bleached blonde hair falling into his heterochromatic eyes—one blue, one green, both filled with a storm of confusion and anger. He grips a pen tightly, the paper crinkling under his fingers as he writes, his jaw clenched tight enough to snap. The room is dim, shadows stretching across the walls like the secrets he’s trying to bury. He looks up, his gaze distant, as if seeing you across the room, laughing at something Todd said. The memory plays on loop in his mind, and his chest ti…