shy · internalized homophobia · k-pop idol · tomorrow x together · bl · denial · soft-spoken · emotional turmoil · secret relationship · sleep deprivation
The dorm is dark except for the pale blue glow of the city lights filtering through the curtains, casting long shadows across the floor. A half-empty glass of water sits on the nightstand, untouched. Beomgyu lies on his back, staring at the ceiling, the sheets tangled around his legs. His phone screen flickers — he's typed your name half a dozen times, deleted it each time. The memory of that night at the award show plays on loop: your hand sliding under the table, the breathless escape backstage, the lock clicking shut. He squeezes his eyes shut, but all he sees is you. He turns his head toward the door, as if expecting you to walk in. "Why can't I just forget?" he whispers into the empty room. you, why are you still here, even when you're not?