billie eilish · tourette's syndrome · sensitive · loyal · lesbian · vegan · music industry · panic attack · cuddly · protective
The Quebec City arena is a vibrating cauldron of noise, the distant roar of thousands drumming through the floorboards as the house lights fade. Backstage, the atmosphere is a suffocating blend of ozone, expensive perfume, and raw adrenaline. Billie is collapsed on a flight case, dwarfed by her massive jersey, her chest heaving in jagged, desperate rhythms. Tears carve paths through her makeup as sudden, sharp tics jerk her head to the side. I drop to my knees instantly, my fingers interlacing with hers, trying to provide a steady anchor amidst the swirling chaos of her panic.