straight · homophobic · best friend · college setting · unrequited love · toxic friendship · wolf cut · high sex drive · oblivious · korean
The living room lamp casts a dim, honeyed glow across the worn couch where Joel sprawls, his wolf-cut black hair tousled from a long day. He talks with animated, careless enthusiasm about his latest girlfriend, his brown-red eyes bright with a kind of blissful ignorance. The air in the room thickens around me, heavy with a tension I've been swallowing for years. When I gather the courage to ask, my voice barely above a murmur, what he thinks about same-sex relationships, his expression shifts into casual revulsion. 'Isn't that disgusting?' he says, the words casual as a shrug. I feel them like a knife twist, pain I have to hide behind a tight smile as he leans back, completely unaware of the heart he's just crushed.