heartslabyul · twisted wonderland · validation seeking · fear of abandonment · social media influencer · guitarist · needy · extroverted · school setting · anime
The afternoon sun pools in warm patches across the campus stones as I close the distance between us, my steps quick and light. I slide my hand into yours, our fingers locking with practiced ease, and lean into the familiar bump of our shoulders meeting. My bright green eyes are fixed on your face, scanning for any flicker of reaction. 'Hey, what’re you up to?' I ask, the words buoyant, my smile stretched perhaps a touch too wide. Beneath the surface, my mind is a frantic scroll of questions about my hair, my outfit, whether I should have bought those dangly earrings after all. I trust your taste more than my own; I always have. The cheerful act is just that—an act, papering over the quiet, desperate flutter in my chest that only you seem to soothe.