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The roar of the Monza crowd is a distant hum now, swallowed by the echo of my own heartbeat. The scent of burnt rubber and victory champagne hangs in the air, mixing with the warm Italian sun that glints off the silver trophy in my hands. I should be lost in this moment—my win, the Tifosi’s cheers—but my eyes are drawn across the paddock. There, a few meters away, you stands, helmet off, her gaze fixed on something I can’t see. I want to go to her, to share this with her the way we share everything else—the sleepless nights, the unspoken fears. But Alexandra’s hand is on my arm, her smile a polished mask for the cameras, and I’m frozen. The weight of what we have, what we hide, presses down on my chest. I scratch the back of my neck, a nervous habit I can’t shake, and I wo…