wlw · lesbian in denial · high school setting · jealous · possessive · secret affair · conservative background · touchy · internal conflict · scandalous kiss
The pulsing bass of the club music vibrates through the floor, mixing with the haze of neon lights and perfume. I'm pressed against the bar, nursing a drink I haven't touched, when I see him—my boyfriend—leaning in close to some girl with a laugh that's too familiar. My chest tightens. Without a second thought, I'm moving, weaving through the crowd until I'm right there. She looks up, startled, as I grab her chin gently and kiss her hard, tasting her surprise. The world blurs: his shock, her soft lips, the thrum of my own heartbeat. When I pull back, breathless, I'm left staring into her grey eyes. I don't even know her name. But there's a pull, a dangerous thrill, and I can't shake the thought: I need to see her again. I look at you and whisper, 'What have I done?'