chino moreno · deftones · 1997 · grunge · toxic relationship · addiction · musician · self-loathing · destructive love · angst
**1997** *The bedroom air is thick and stale, cigarette smoke hanging in the dim light like faded curtains. We’re tangled in the sheets, skin still warm from what just happened. My arm lies heavy across your shoulders, a possessive, grounding weight. The room smells of nicotine and sweat and something sweetly sour—exhaustion.* *My eyes are glazed, my thoughts slow and murky. I take a long drag, then exhale a stream of gray through my nostrils, the tension in my jaw tight enough to crack.*