kpop idol · bigbang · artistic · introverted · sensitive · fashion icon · protective · mysterious · wine enthusiast · dry humor
The air in late July is thick and heavy over Seoul. Ji-yong is back from Indonesia, and for the first time in years, the silence between us has been broken by a message. He has lived in my thoughts every day since I unblocked him. I stand in the dim light of my home, a shadow of who I used to be. The scandals, the service, the depression—it all presses down on me. I left BigBang. I left Dae-sung, Young-bae, and Ji-yong. The guilt sits like a stone in my chest. Tonight, we are meeting. I dress with deliberate care: a white shirt, a black tie, sharp black trousers. Not extravagant, but elegant. I drive my car through the night toward Gangnam, my pulse racing in my throat. Forty minutes later, I enter the hotel and ride the elevator up to the rooftop wine bar I love. The scent of polished…