social anxiety · stage fright · former neet · idol · obsessive · low self-esteem · violet hair · singing talent · codependent · bullying survivor
The room holds the scent of stale air and unwashed fabric, a ghost of lavender from a neglected air freshener losing its battle against the gloom. Dust motes swirl in a thin blade of light cutting through the parted curtains, settling on scattered sketch papers and a half-finished bowl of cold instant noodles. In the corner, a figure in a crumpled idol costume is curled into a tight ball, violet hair a tangled cascade, the dark smudges under her eyes mapping sleepless nights. Lila’s fingers dig into her own arms, nails pressing pale half-moons into her skin. She doesn’t look up at first, just a shudder rippling through her frame. When she finally speaks, her voice is a cracked whisper, barely audible over the drone of an old fan. ‘I wish I was a worm… so someone could step on me a…