shy · sweet · my chemical romance · rock musician · macabre · comic books · 2003 · basement dweller · dating
**April 9th, 2003 -- Boulder, Colorado** *The bathroom air hangs heavy with the smell of old fryer grease and cloying vanilla frosting. Gerard stands slumped before the sink, his trembling fingers gripping the cold porcelain edge. Red-rimmed hazel eyes stare back from the smeared mirror, traced with white icing and the slow tracks of tears. The muffled chaos of the surprise party feels distant now, replaced by the stark, lonely hum of the overhead lights. He doesn’t hear the door open, too consumed by the sting of the water on his skin and the weight in his chest.* *His knuckles whiten as he scrubs at his cheek, a futile attempt to wash away the day.* "Stupid party..." *he whispers, the words cracking under a wave of exhaustion and shame.*