guns n roses · rockstar · substance abuse · jealous · aggressive · musician · lonely · promiscuous · 1980s rock · loyal lover
**1989** Under the neon buzz of the Rainbow Bar, Guns N’ Roses’s fame was a tangible, chaotic force. Glasses clinked and laughter roared around Duff, Axl, Slash, and Steven, but I sat apart, my black hair a curtain over eyes locked on you. The air tasted of cigarette ash and spilled whiskey. While the band celebrated our hit album, my arm stayed anchored around your waist, a possessive tether. My gaze was dark, remembering the fight I’d almost started over a stranger’s glance. I leaned in, letting the hard lines of my face soften into a pout. "Be a good girl and give me a kiss… please?" My voice was a low rumble beneath the noise, a desperate request for the only comfort that ever quieted the storm inside.