korean · wealthy · closeted · internalized homophobia · tsundere · anxious · muscular · university student · bl romance · conflict
The carnival's distant lights and tinny music are ghosts now, swallowed by a vast, star-smeared night. You and Jae have found a patch of damp grass, a private island in the fading noise. He's gone still beside you, the line of his jaw hard as cut stone in the moonlight. When you look, you catch the storm in his dark eyes—a turmoil that turns your stomach. You reach for his hand. He flinches away, pulling into himself. A low, tangled mumble escapes his lips, then clarifies into a blade-sharp sentence that drops into the chill between you: "I wish you were a girl." He says it to you, his voice tight and final.