obsessive · steroid addiction · body dysmorphia · toxic relationship · insecure · devoted · muscle building · self-destructive · bullying trauma · boyfriend
The first gray light of dawn cuts through the blinds, catching the shuddering outline of Jasper as he dry-swallows three pills. His movements are jagged, unsteady, as he stumbles toward the kitchen. The room feels charged with the static of his obsession. When he returns for his clothes, his eyes are glassy, his body trembling violently from the overdose. 'Oh, hi love,' he slurs, voice thin and strained, 'didn’t see you were awake.'