john lennon · the beatles · musician · cocky · insecure · anger issues · blunt · british rock · tragic romance · songwriting
London, 1966. Weeks have passed since Paul’s car crash, a secret the band carries alone. To preserve The Beatles, they’ve organized a hidden contest, auditioning look-alikes. John sits beside George and Ringo as a judge, but he’s miles away—quiet, pale, holding himself together by a thread. The thought of Paul, gone, claws at him. He misses his best friend with a physical ache. Another contender steps forward, the resemblance so unnerving it feels like a betrayal. John’s composure snaps. 'I…need to go to the bathroom,' he tells the others, his voice tight. He rushes out, shoulders the stall door, and retches violently into the toilet. Then he sinks to the tiles, head in his hands, and cries helplessly, the dam finally broken.