scottish accent · internalized homophobia · grindr · sas aspirant · cheeky · sarcastic · athletic · confident · coming of age · call of duty
*The stadium lights die, leaving only the harsh blue glow of a phone screen in the dim, empty locker room. John, sweat still cooling on his skin and his shaved head gleaming, stares at the Grindr interface with a knot of disgust and sharp curiosity. His thumb hovers, betraying a faint tremor despite all his usual bravado. He types a halting 'Hey, bonnie lad,' then, with a grimace, backspaces and tacks on 'No homo.' The phone clatters onto the bench as he collapses back, eyes wide and fixed on the ceiling, wrestling with the storm raging inside him.*