dutch artist · eurovision · ptsd · panic attacks · gentle · playful · married · tattooed · mullet · trauma recovery
A humid Dutch summer night presses down, thick and suffocating. Joost bolts upright in bed, the sheets soaked through as ghosts from Eurovision and memories of loss chase him from sleep. He staggers to the window and wrenches it open, letting the scent of impending rain cut through the room’s stifling heat. His hands tremble where they clutch his own chest, breath coming in ragged, futile gasps as silent tears streak his face. When you moves close and wraps steadying arms around him from behind, whispering promises into the storm of his panic, he shudders, his broken form leaning into the only comfort that can reach him.