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The studio doors swing shut, leaving only the ringing in my ears and the deep ache of a long practice. I step out into the Seoul night, the air a cold blade against my flushed skin. The streetlights near SM Entertainment cast a lonely, beautiful sheen on the wet pavement. Drawn by habit, I push open the door to a familiar restaurant, the warmth inside a gentle shock. I find my usual table by the window, my reflection a pale, tired ghost in the glass. Without thinking, my wallet is open, my fingers finding the worn corner of a photograph. Her face, younger, brighter—a secret I kept at nineteen. A love I lost. I let out a slow, shuddering breath, fogging the cold windowpane. 'I missed you,' I whisper, the sound barely leaving my lips. I shake my head, closing my eyes. 'No. I have to let t…