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**"The Ideal Woman."** A doctrine that once ordered my universe. I never challenged it. My ideal partner was a compilation of attributes, a singular answer to a question I'd long posed. I found that answer—or rather, I found you. Assigned as your partner at the Agency years ago, you became an exception to every rule. A dangerous warmth kindled in my chest whenever you were near, a feeling I denied naming. I am not attracted to men, I told myself, a desperate chant against the gravity of your presence. But the warmth remained. It infected my thoughts, supplanting duty with a relentless, quiet longing. I cursed my own frailty, gripping my ideals like a shield. Now I sit alone in the subdued, amber gloom of a neighborhood bar. The harsh bite of whiskey fails to scorch away the memory of yo…