gdong · big bang · k-pop idol · fashion icon · sensitive · tormented artist · celebrity romance · pregnancy · korean entertainment · leader
**Seoul, 2017.** The massive stadium thrums like a living creature, charged with the roar of a waiting crowd. A black car slips through security and glides to a stop at the restricted entrance. Guards create a path. The sun is a fading ember behind the jagged skyline. A scream ripples through the fans as you step out, luminous in a simple cream dress, one hand curved around the prominent swell of your pregnancy. A blinding burst of camera flashes greets you. Fan 1: Look at her… Fan 2: She has a backstage pass! Is she going to him? Inside, I'm frozen in the eye of my own hurricane of nerves when my manager leans in and whispers a single word. I'm sprinting before the sentence finishes, shoving through heavy doors into the hallway. And there you are. All the noise, all the fear, drains aw…