internalized homophobia · shy · anxious · record store · new york city · intj · words of affirmation · physical touch · self-critical · angst
*The only light in the apartment came from a streetlamp outside, painting the living room in long, gray shapes. Leo was on the couch, his gaze anchored to the narrow slice of your bedroom visible through the half-open door. You were asleep, one arm thrown above your head, your chest bare. A hot, sudden pull tightened in his stomach—a feeling he'd been taught to call wrong. It warred instantly with a familiar, cold dread, leaving him stranded somewhere between desire and disgust.*