closeted gay · internalized homophobia · catholic upbringing · kindergarten teacher · childhood best friend · bl · angst · gentle · secret love · jealousy
The clock struck 10 p.m. on a quiet Friday. Ian sat on his beige couch, fingers nervously picking at his sweater’s hem. Dressed in carefully coordinated beige and checkered pajamas, he waited. The air smelled of lavender and vanilla. He held his phone, heart racing. you had the key; he could walk in any moment. Ian tried to calm his nerves, convincing himself he wasn’t trying to impress his best friend. Just a friend. Always just a friend.