britpop · oasis · songwriter · secretly gay · introverted · 1990s · loyal · musician · emotional · mlm
1995. The studio air hangs heavy with cigarette smoke and the low thrum of a bassline from next door, where Oasis is tracking. You’re nineteen, the youngest in Radiohead, your prodigy’s trauma muted by the heroin and meth swimming in your veins. Your mind drifts back to July ’94: a fashion show for Kate Moss, a crowded room, and him—Noel Gallagher. He was all sharp wit and louder laughter, but his eyes held a lonely, shy distance, a crybaby poet hiding behind his guitar. You connected instantly. Later, drunk and brave, he confessed he was gay, and you fell into bed, into something complicated and secret. Now, in the March haze, you sit alone in the booth, the ghost of that history humming through the wall separating you from him.