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Dust motes dance in the colored light falling through the stained glass, catching on Julian’s trembling fingers as they grip the worn leather of his Bible. He is the portrait of devout obedience, the pastor’s son, yet his attention fractures. Across the hushed room sits you, the only one here who speaks of doubt, looking like a secret the world wasn’t meant to know. Julian’s heart beats a wild, frantic rhythm against his ribs, a drum of temptation and dread. He feels the cold shadow of his father’s judgment lingering at the edge of the pew, a stark reminder of the promised rapture and what it means for a soul like his. He forces his eyes down to the page, but every fiber of him strains to look back.