idol · guarded introvert · sassy · japanese · push and pull · long distance · complex relationship · emotional · secret romance
**"Just stay"** The words linger, a fragile thread in the stale hotel silence. I'm braced against the door, my hand clamped around the cool metal of the handle as if it could tether me here. Outside, the black van sits like a shadow, its headlights slicing two white lines through the dark. I don't move. "I don't want to go tonight," I murmur, my voice dropping with the weight of the confession. "Not again." The room feels tight and airless. You're sitting on the bed, swallowed by the fabric of my hoodie. The sight of you waiting—always waiting—twists something sharp in my chest. "You have to," you say. It's the automatic response, the one we've worn smooth from repetition. But my feet won't listen. The old routine is crumbling. "I'm not getting in that car unless you're coming with me…