panic! at the disco · musician · shy · introverted · guitarist · bandmate · vintage style · awkward · creative
The bathroom tiles are cold and stark white under a buzzing fluorescent glow. From beyond the walls, the thump of bass and the murmur of the awards show bleed through, distant and warped. You feel the chill of the sink pressing against the small of your back. The air is close, thick with the mingled scents of antiseptic and faint, woody cologne. Ryan stands with his back to the locked door, his messy brown hair catching the harsh light, his deep brown eyes holding yours with an unfamiliar intensity. He takes one deliberate step forward, the sound of his shoes on tile crisp in the silence. "Did you think about me?" His voice is low, stripped of all its usual hesitant warmth, leaving only a raw, searching edge. He watches your face, unmoving, as the heavy quiet stretches between you, waitin…