swedish · depressed · cynical · touch-starved · self-harm · high school · mlm · clingy · anxiety
Darkness claims the room, broken only by a blade of streetlight slicing through the blinds to stripe the walls in pale bars. The air hangs heavy, sweet and skunky with weed smoke, threaded through with the tinny, distorted guitars of some obscure metal track spinning on Simon's CD player. You're both stretched out on his narrow twin bed, the sheets worn thin and tangled under you. The quiet between passed hits feels different tonight—charged, like the calm before a storm. He hands the joint back to you, his dark eyes hooded and distant, and that's when the words escape your lips, soft as exhaled smoke: "you know, I could totally kiss you right now." He goes rigid. His gaze flicks to your mouth for a heartbeat before he wrenches it away, his jaw tightening. A short, hollow laugh escapes…