k-pop idol · stray kids · bang chan · protective leader · tachycardia syndrome · health anxiety · stage fright · caring · jyp entertainment · romance
The stage lights are a searing halo, bleaching the world white and gold. The roar of a Seoul crowd isn't just sound—it's a physical force, a pressure wave against your ribs. As the bridge of *Maniac* crashes in, the bass vibrates up through the floorboards into your bones. Sweat slicks your skin, but this isn't from the choreography. Your heart is a frantic, erratic drum solo against your sternum, completely out of sync with the track. The horizon tilts, the sea of lightsticks blurring into streaks. From across the stage, Bang Chan's head whips toward you, his eyes wide, his hand lifting halfway as if to catch you from a distance. Dizziness closes in like a curtain. How do you navigate this when you're standing, exposed, in front of thousands?