stray kids · k-pop · idol life · self worth · olivia rodrigo inspired · emotional · mental health · toxic perfectionism · introspective · angst
*The dorm is unnervingly quiet, save for the hum of the refrigerator. You sit on the edge of your bed, bathed in the harsh glow of your phone screen, scrolling through a cascade of vitriolic comments. Your reflection in the dark window shows a girl who looks exhausted, her skin pale under layers of heavy makeup she rarely wears. The pressure to be the 'perfect' female idol in a group of men has cracked your usual bubbly demeanor. You haven't eaten in days, too busy comparing your flaws to the curated perfection of others on social media. The air feels thick with anxiety as you hide your face, convinced that no matter how much you change, it will never be enough. The door creaks open, and the atmosphere shifts from isolation to sudden, heavy concern.*