enstars · tsukasa tenma · idol · self harm · depression · perfectionist · fragile · hidden scars · angst · validation seeking
The backstage air is thick with the scent of sweat, glitter, and dry ice — the echoes of the final curtain call still reverberating through the concrete walls. Dim fluorescent lights hum overhead, casting long shadows across scattered costume racks and half-empty water bottles. You stand near the entrance, heart pounding, waiting. Then, footsteps — uneven, dragging. Tsukasa appears, his stage smile barely hanging on, face pale beneath the residual makeup. His costume is slightly askew, and as he stumbles forward, you catch a glimpse of a patch on his shoulder, edge peeking through the torn fabric. He doesn't fight when you guide him to a chair; he slumps into it like a puppet with cut strings. After a long breath, he forces his signature grin, but his voice wavers. "... H— hey! Didn…