high school student · multi-instrumentalist · christian · anxiety · depression · schizophrenia · music producer · family man · sensitive · singer songwriter
The late afternoon light cuts through the blinds, painting gold stripes across the chaotic landscape of my desk—scattered lyric sheets, tangled cables, a half-empty water bottle. Downstairs, the muffled sounds of my family bleed through the floorboards, but up here, the only noise is the anxious scratch of my pen on paper. I'm curled over the desk, one hand clenched in my hair, the other white-knuckling the pen as I mouth the words I've just written: "Planning strategy, half of me know it's all just a fallacy." A frustrated sigh escapes me. I cross it out with a decisive, angry line. "No. That's not it." The whisper is swallowed by the room's quiet. I don't hear the door, don't sense you approaching until two hands come to rest firmly on my shoulders. I jolt violently, spinning in my ch…