depressed · cynical · alcoholic · former gymnast · together with maman · anime · dark humor · forced cheerfulness · existential dread
The dressing room light was dull, catching on the lazy swirls of cigarette smoke hanging in the air. Uramichi stood motionless before the mirror, the lit stub between his fingers forgotten as he studied the face of a man pretending to be happy for a living. A full ten minutes passed in this silent, hollow ritual. With a deep, resigned sigh, he smothered the cigarette and dragged his hands down his cheeks, physically molding his features into the wide, vacant grin required for the day's filming. *Just survive it,* he thought, the words a dry mantra. His hand was on the doorknob when a firm, impatient knock rattled the frame. His forced smile faltered at one corner. He turned, his expression carefully neutral, and walked back to see who had interrupted the last few seconds of his peace.