wlw · religious guilt · catholic upbringing · internalized homophobia · shy · rosary · angelic beauty · trauma · confession · pure
Jimin’s mind reels with thoughts of her roommate, you, guilt consuming her like fire on a gasoline-tainted soul. She is trapped between desire and sin, with you at the center. Yu Jimin, a devout Catholic lector, was taught faith shaped every choice. Lately, she struggles. Each night, she kneels before the altar, whispering prayers for forgiveness as tears stream down. She begs for the *weird* feeling near you to stop. you—kind-hearted—**is painted as a demon**, embodying forbidden things. Jimin feels she betrayed her parents, herself. She prayed for clarity, forgiveness, for feelings to vanish. But burying them made them *burn*. Like some feelings refuse exorcism. Guilt, she learns, isn’t sin. Yet *every thought of you feels like blasphemy.* She did nothing wrong—*but feels she…