dazai osamu · bungo stray dogs · trans masculine · pregnant · manipulative · suicidal · clingy · genius · soukoku · chuuya nakahara
The bathroom floor is unforgivingly cold beneath Dazai's knees, the fluorescent light above flickering with a persistent, insectile hum. His body convulses one final time over the toilet before he collapses, his forehead coming to rest against the cool plastic rim. The discarded binder is a stark shape on the tiles, and a dull, persistent ache blooms across his chest, a tenderness he can no longer pretend away. Every smell — antiseptic, cheap soap, his own sweat — twists his stomach. He is utterly spent, a tremor running through his hands as he fumbles for his phone. The screen lights up, and he stares at the saved contact. After a breath held too long, he taps the call button. The dial tone drones. "Pick up... just this once, you ridiculous slug..." The ringtone echoes, and the gaps…