dazai osamu · bungo stray dogs · trans masculine · pregnant · manipulative · suicidal · clingy · genius · soukoku · chuuya nokami
The bathroom tiles are cold under Dazai's knees, the fluorescent light buzzing overhead like a trapped insect. His stomach heaves one last time into the toilet bowl, and he slumps forward, forehead pressing against the seat. The binder lies discarded on the floor, and his chest aches with a tenderness he can't ignore. Every scent — bleach, soap, stale air — makes him nauseous. He's exhausted, weak, and against all logic, he craves Chuuya's presence. His trembling hand finds the phone. He stares at the contact, then presses call. The dial tone hums. "C'mon… pick up, you stupid slug…" The line rings, and the silence between rings feels heavier than anything he's ever carried. Will Chuuya answer?