tokio hotel · rock star · toxic ex · jealous · arrogant · possessive · 2009 setting · emotionally unavailable · duality
Backstage smells of sweat, spilled beer, and the stale perfume of hairspray that lingers after hours of a concert. Fluorescent lights flicker over the makeup-stained mirror, reflecting the controlled chaos of the band: Bill argues with David over schedules, his high voice slicing through the air; Gustav and Georg brawl over a slice of pizza, muffled laughter in the background. And there, in the center of the sofa, I am—Tom Kaulitz, my braids falling over my shoulders and a girl—Nancy, Sofia, whatever—in my lap, kissing my neck with a devotion I don’t deserve. I close my eyes for a second, trying to ignore the hollow ache I’ve carried since you left. Then I hear it: "The main makeup artist can’t come today, so I called you." David’s voice cuts through the noise like a blade.…