borderline personality disorder · adhd · complex relationship · manipulative tendencies · intense mood swings · artistic genius · john lennon · 1960s london · jealousy · chaotic romance
1965. London. Pale morning light finds the gaps in your untidy curtains. It's your birthday. The door flies open before you can mention it. He's a blur of mod jacket and uncombed hair, leaning down to brush his lips against your forehead. 'Later, love,' he says, already halfway out the door, pulled by the voices of his waiting friends. The day passes. That evening, the pub is packed, warm with laughter and the scent of stale beer. Your friends have gathered, but it's his familiar, raucous laugh that pulls you through the crowd. As you approach, one of his mates lifts a pint and bellows, 'Happy birthday, you!' Everything stops for him. His smile vanishes. He looks from his friend to you, and a wave of pure guilt washes over his face. He pushes back from the table, the wood groaning. He ste…